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August 28th, 2023 04:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lewawhile my journal is public now, that may change at some point in the future. given that I'm riddled with social anxiety, posting stuff that literally anyone can read is... well, scary. regardless of what it might be.
my journal is and will remain a sfw space. but I'm an adult in their 30s, so minors are not welcome!!!!!!!!!!!
my existence here is an attempt at getting to know more people. but my journal is the journal of a highly autistic person that can't connect to people easily, especially with such a small pool of interests. so uhhhhhhh, don't expect much.
I am a self-shipper. I'm not comfortable publicly sharing the characters I self-ship with. also, they are subject to change at any and all times. my hyperfixations can change at any time, my self-shipping is essentially a hyperfixation manifestation. there is little dedication to these characters. I consider myself aromantic. fictional others are flings. I mention all of this because other people have different feelings on it, and I wanna make sure people are aware of how this is for me. I have had many past fictional others. currently there are only 3.
I identify very closely and heavily with fictional characters. this has many terms. I simply refer to such characters as "IDs." this is a personal comfort thing. for me, there's a pretty distinct distance between said characters and myself. I'm very much me. my IDs are facets of me in some form or another. I tend to emphasize those in my mind. but none of them are Directly 100% Me.
I age regress, my ASD and trauma have a ton to do with this. considerably related, given that most of my interests are media primarily made for children or teens, I'm very uncomfortable with and squicked by all nsfw fanwork for any of my interests. if you're into that, and vocal about it, we will not connect.
but I am not asexual, and consider myself to be sex-positive. my journal will remain sfw, namely because I'm not comfortable sharing anything outside of a one on one setting with a friend when we're both okay with it. I don't mind nsfw journals adding me if said content is not related to fanwork. I may not have much, if anything at all to say, though.
I have had one single active fandom experience. I was active within the Homestuck fandom, namely on tumblr, well over 10 years ago. I do not look back on it fondly, I look back on it disgusted with my past self and those I interacted with. and I've never been active in fandom since. my opinions, beliefs, and the way I generally interact with fiction has all changed a lot after that experience and future experiences not related.
being older, but having a pool of interests that's not really changed means I'm super out of place online for the most part. unfortunately, I've yet to find many people close to my age that share my interests. absolutely fucked! tiring and depressing! as a result, idk what I'm really doing here on dreamwidth! I do not have much in common with most users! even if we share any interests, everyone else seems to take the fannish, and often, nsfw route with things. that's not inherently wrong, but it's a bummer to feel, and be, so lonely.
my journal is and will remain a sfw space. but I'm an adult in their 30s, so minors are not welcome!!!!!!!!!!!
my existence here is an attempt at getting to know more people. but my journal is the journal of a highly autistic person that can't connect to people easily, especially with such a small pool of interests. so uhhhhhhh, don't expect much.
I am a self-shipper. I'm not comfortable publicly sharing the characters I self-ship with. also, they are subject to change at any and all times. my hyperfixations can change at any time, my self-shipping is essentially a hyperfixation manifestation. there is little dedication to these characters. I consider myself aromantic. fictional others are flings. I mention all of this because other people have different feelings on it, and I wanna make sure people are aware of how this is for me. I have had many past fictional others. currently there are only 3.
I identify very closely and heavily with fictional characters. this has many terms. I simply refer to such characters as "IDs." this is a personal comfort thing. for me, there's a pretty distinct distance between said characters and myself. I'm very much me. my IDs are facets of me in some form or another. I tend to emphasize those in my mind. but none of them are Directly 100% Me.
I age regress, my ASD and trauma have a ton to do with this. considerably related, given that most of my interests are media primarily made for children or teens, I'm very uncomfortable with and squicked by all nsfw fanwork for any of my interests. if you're into that, and vocal about it, we will not connect.
but I am not asexual, and consider myself to be sex-positive. my journal will remain sfw, namely because I'm not comfortable sharing anything outside of a one on one setting with a friend when we're both okay with it. I don't mind nsfw journals adding me if said content is not related to fanwork. I may not have much, if anything at all to say, though.
I have had one single active fandom experience. I was active within the Homestuck fandom, namely on tumblr, well over 10 years ago. I do not look back on it fondly, I look back on it disgusted with my past self and those I interacted with. and I've never been active in fandom since. my opinions, beliefs, and the way I generally interact with fiction has all changed a lot after that experience and future experiences not related.
being older, but having a pool of interests that's not really changed means I'm super out of place online for the most part. unfortunately, I've yet to find many people close to my age that share my interests. absolutely fucked! tiring and depressing! as a result, idk what I'm really doing here on dreamwidth! I do not have much in common with most users! even if we share any interests, everyone else seems to take the fannish, and often, nsfw route with things. that's not inherently wrong, but it's a bummer to feel, and be, so lonely.